Change of Hair/Change of Scenery

I’ve done away with a lot of hair. A substantial amount of it. Enough hair to hold a year and a half’s worth of obstacles, negativity, and questions. Oh, I’m being dramatic. But only partially.

A few posts back I wrote asking for some advice because of how I’ve been feeling lately. I got some really nice and thoughtful responses and I appreciate all of them. they helped me make a big decision.

I’ve decided to move back home for a month or so. There have been things going on in my life that have been burdening me for a long time and some things that have only begun to burden me. I’ve decided that going back East and being around friends and family in my home state is the perfect place to do some serious soul searching.

I leave Oakland tomorrow. I’m nervous and also really excited at the prospect of getting to clear my emotional slate and figure out what I need to be happy. It will be my time to really decide what I want, not what I think I should want.

I plan to use this blog to my advantage, of course. I think it would be a really great therapeutic and creative source to document my time over there: what I’m thinking about, what I see, and the things that remind me of who I am. Maybe some of you will relate, maybe some of you won’t but I’m really eager to share this exploration with you all.

I’ll keep in touch from Massachusetts! ❤

Etsy Envy

Feather Necklace by Meadow Brie

Silver Hairpin By Jenny Buttons

Leather Tapestry Boots by Ouma Nour

Feather Hair Extension by Echoing Waters

Leather Oxfords By Trees Treet Vintage

Wood Frame Shades By Tumble Weeds Oddities

Lion Money Clip By Cosmic Firefly

Vertibrae Cuff Bracelet By Academic Jewelry (not shown on Etsy but I'm still in envy of it!)

 

 

Inspiration Care Of Seven Devils

Since I am admittedly totally obsessed with everything about Florence Welch including her fashion sense I wanted to share this fan-made video for her song Seven Devils. It is compiled by FATMFanClub who used some really prime clips of Florence looking oh so hauntingly stylish (as usual):

What do you think??

Now That I think About It…

Hello everyone. I’ve been M.I.A. for a bit. I’ve been dealing with life; asking myself a lot of questions and trying hard to find the answers. Maybe it’s the change of seasons (though Northern California isn’t that drastic) but I’ve been having a lot of insecurity about what I’ve been doing with my life lately. Maybe this discouraged me from blogging for a while (but I missed it). I was actually inspired by Paige from Barefoot and Vintage to spill some of my proverbial guts.

I haven’t been able to help feel overwhelmed about what my life’s goals are. All the experts say that in order to feel truly fulfilled you need to find what you want to do and do it, but what if you don’t know what you want to do? I feel like I’m interested in so many things and whenever I decide to try something (art school, teaching. massage, writing) I get discouraged and scared and I quit.

I know doing things this way will just keep me from that unknowable thing that’ll make my life complete. I also know that I have most of everything I’ve ever wanted (a wonderful partner, an apartment in a popular city, a cat, health insurance…) But there’s still something missing. I know I need a change of direction professionally but I don’t know how to go about that: I’m without a college degree, I’ve only ever fallen into jobs I was great at but didn’t like doing. But now that I’m older I’m realizing that way of living is not emotionally sustainable.

I guess I’m just looking for a confidence-boost and some focus. Any kind words welcome! Thank you in advance.

Here’s a little Florence singing a song that pumps me up (I think of my dad when I hear it).

Mod & Comfy.

I am always searching for basic cardigan sweaters. I found this forest green one at a local thrift store. It was missing buttons so I went to the craft store and bought some bright teal ones to add a little mod flavor.

Unfortunately, the sweater looks black in the photos and I couldn't pick up the color in Photoshop. Trust me, it's dark green

Then I added a fun printed collard shirt to go underneath and buttoned it all the way up. It seems more mod to me that way.